everything.

Let everything I do or say be done with overwhelming love.

Because everything I do or say is for the glory of God.

Lord, let this be my life motto. Always remind me of how significant you made me to be in this life for others. Don't let the shadow of the world blind me with Your AMAZING plan for me. Show me, lead me, & guide me. Let everything I do make me become more like You.

changes that heal.

it's been a good day.

i got a lot done, kinda.

it's really hard to have it together all the time & sometimes i just don't. hah..i freak out & get a little discombobulated & then i realize where the freak i am & feel like an idiot. but, that's okay. that's me. the Lord still has so much to teach me & i realize more&more everyday that i still have so much to learn about myself. i feel like this may be what i talk about many, many times on my blog. well, here ya go. reading it again! don't ya just love me & my repetitive rants?!

anyways, reading a book that a dear friend gave me. changes that heal by dr. henry cloud. i've only read the first chapter & i'm already knowing this book will be an all time favorite that i will live my life by. reading the second chapter before bed tonight. it's only like 6 bucks i believe. so, "if you don't want your life changed, then don't read it!" just a word of advice from my friend. [[miss you bee tee dub aaron.]]

also, found a new song by one of my faves britt nicole. i saw it mentioned on twitter & wanted to go back & listen, so i did! there is so much raw emotion in this song. the chorus is really great & really is a motivator because i am the one that always tries to figure everything out. [[make sure to check it out - have your way by britt nicole. i've seriously only listened to only 2 or 3 of her songs & i always want to sing them at the top of my lungs because they are so great&relevant.]] anyways, i just want to know why to EVERY situation & understand things. however, i completely understand that it's hard to live this out every day & i will fail. i will fail others that are in my life that expect that out of me too. but, i have to understand that i don't have to know every step. i just need to go along for the ride that the Lord has put me on & stop making everything so darn complicated.

onto other things..fall is one of my favorite seasons! that may be another repetitive rant. the food, the fair, the breeze, ah. it's just awesome. everything about it. this weekend i have off! wahoo! so, i am taking my belongings west for a couple days. i'm going to have some time with family&friends. my dad was so excited he sent me a "yippee" in a text! love my daddio. i get to see my sweet pup who will knock me down with a warm welcome [[one of my favorite things]]. who am i kidding..i have a lot of favorite things. obviously.

if you get anything out of this blog, i would want it to be that God takes broken things & makes them beautiful. because all the mess ups that i may share or the broken places i have been, the Lord takes that & makes it all for a purpose: to lead us to be more like Him & to do His Will.

make the most.

i had the most amazing morning with one of my best friends. one of the reasons the Lord brought me to this area is definitely to meet amanda. she's been so encouraging and i am so thankful for her friendship even though grown-up life makes it really difficult for us to see each other; we still make the most of it & try to really take every opportunity we can to see&talk to one another.

i have been really struggling with a few things work related lately [[not feeling up to par with others around me, not feeling like i fit in the fashion world, being WAYYY TOOO HARDDD on myself, etc]] but, honestly, i could kill the job if i just put my mind to it. i don't give myself enough credit for how smart i am & i'm definitely not trying hard enough because i let every pitfall that i may have discourage me. i am a perfectionist because i have a type a personality & i am competitive because i only want to succeed at the task that is set before me. however, the Lord says to make the most of any situation we are put in, & that is what i have to do right now. this could be preparing me for what is to come later on in life. even if i am with Buckle for the rest of my career or if the Lord leads me in other directions, the Lord will specifically lead me there, somehow, someway. i am trying WAY TOO HARD to do this alone and try to plan my life & figure out what He has written in the book for my life. & the Lord is really breaking me down & saying "Let me lead you." & i'm going to do that. i am going to let go & put everything into what i am doing right now & live life to the fullest with what i have in front of me.

i am traveling with work this week & i am going to make the most of this trip & really try to focus on how the Lord wants to build me in ways for my future, wherever that may lead me. because it's not about me anyways. it's all for Him.

in His Love--

stop overthinking, start living.

where do i begin? the past month has been a whirlwind it feels like. grown up life is tough to get used to. but, sometimes i think i need to stop and smell the roses. i am so caught up in worrying about SO MANY things that i have NO control over......STILL. when am i going to lay it down and completely surrender that to the Lord? i'm definitely realizing that this is going to be a hugeeee process for me. & if anyone knows me, i highly dislike processes. but, when processes are over, i really enjoy what i learned from it. i'm driving myself crazy trying to sit here and figure out what is going to happen next that i'm not just living. why be worried about the next think in life..our life is but a vapor & the Lord has it all figured out. there is NO reason why i should need to have it all figured out!

i really need to stop overthinking & start living. there are so many things i want to enjoy about this process that the Lord has put me in. but, i always am ready for the next step & i never really just take in the moment. i always think of how i could make this better or the negative about it rather than the positive.

so, whatever you are thankful for right now, yes, you who is reading this, take it in. in any situation, i want to figure out what i love about that exact moment & what i am thankful for right then. & right now, i am thankful for the sound of crickets outside.

"Since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our 'God is a consuming fire.'" Hebrews 12:28-29

in His Love--