make the most.

i had the most amazing morning with one of my best friends. one of the reasons the Lord brought me to this area is definitely to meet amanda. she's been so encouraging and i am so thankful for her friendship even though grown-up life makes it really difficult for us to see each other; we still make the most of it & try to really take every opportunity we can to see&talk to one another.

i have been really struggling with a few things work related lately [[not feeling up to par with others around me, not feeling like i fit in the fashion world, being WAYYY TOOO HARDDD on myself, etc]] but, honestly, i could kill the job if i just put my mind to it. i don't give myself enough credit for how smart i am & i'm definitely not trying hard enough because i let every pitfall that i may have discourage me. i am a perfectionist because i have a type a personality & i am competitive because i only want to succeed at the task that is set before me. however, the Lord says to make the most of any situation we are put in, & that is what i have to do right now. this could be preparing me for what is to come later on in life. even if i am with Buckle for the rest of my career or if the Lord leads me in other directions, the Lord will specifically lead me there, somehow, someway. i am trying WAY TOO HARD to do this alone and try to plan my life & figure out what He has written in the book for my life. & the Lord is really breaking me down & saying "Let me lead you." & i'm going to do that. i am going to let go & put everything into what i am doing right now & live life to the fullest with what i have in front of me.

i am traveling with work this week & i am going to make the most of this trip & really try to focus on how the Lord wants to build me in ways for my future, wherever that may lead me. because it's not about me anyways. it's all for Him.

in His Love--