Psalm 13

long time, no talk. there is no justification why i have pushed back my blog postings. i'm not doing a very good job keeping this goal up :/ anyways, i had some GREAT time reading this morning and pondering on it with Jesus. a few things have gone on in my life lately where i'm learning VITAL lessons for me to grow as a Christian, and i'm proud that the Lord is teaching me through the temptations that the devil is putting before me those things. even though that is very generalized, i think we can all agree that we've been there. every single day we're there. some are just deeper than others. & those deeeeeeep ones have surfaced this week. this weekend i think the Lord is going to reveal a lot to me as well. i'm really excited to see where this weekend leads me.

school has gotten out of controL. goodness gracious. i have more homework now than i have EVER had. yes, the last semester of my senior year i am working my boot-tay off. & some of my professors i could kick in the teeth. they are just not good at teaching. whew. i hope anybody that is thinking about going into teaching can really do better than any of these cats.

Psalm 13

Wow. I believe I do this a lot. I just wait for God to answer my prayer in like 2 seconds. I have to wait on God's timing for the right time for what it is my heart is praying for. The biggest thing I can relate to right now is this. Because prayer is so off kilter for me. I'm not ingrained in prayer like I should be. I'm thinking the Lord is just going to give me strength to do it on my own when really I'm only believing in myself because I'm not communicating that with God AT ALL. For example, my future is a HUGE thing on my prayer list & it's like I'm waiting for the Lord to just shine down through the clouds and just tell me all there is I need to know. NO. I can't expect everything to be handed to me on a silver platter. The Lord WANTS me to communicate with him & he WANTS me to reach out to him. So, why aren't we doing it? Are we so obsessed with our own lives that we don't reach out to him? Actually, there could be a pa-jillion reasons why we aren't communicating with the Lord. & we need to stop thinking that we can do it alone. Because we can't. & no matter how many times I have to tell myself that & no matter how many times my friends have to tell me, I still have to be reminded of that.